my identity and originality
date: 11/16/2023mood: down
Lately, I've been feeling down. I feel as if there's nothing interesting about me, nothing that makes me me. Most of my life, the things I've created have been immitations of other people's things and it's always difficult for me to come up with ideas of my own. I wonder if it could be my over-exposure to the internet, but then again, I've seen many many people who grew up on the internet that create such amazing and unique webpages or artwork. So my conclusion is that maybe I'm just not an interesting or creative person.
epic news about my tablet
date: 11/10/2023mood: HAPPY
After many months of it not working, I finally figured out the problem with my tablet; the charging cord was chewed up by my CAT!!!! UGH. So I found another C charger and plugged it in and now it works (kind of). I think the cord that connects the cursor to the pen is a bit messed up, but it still works okay :3 So expect more frequent art!
another relationship update
date: 10/26/2023mood: hurt?
One of my boyfriends broke up with me. We haven't talked in a while even though I tried to start conversations with him. He told me that since we don't talk anymore, we should just split up. I'm really hurt and upset. I feel like I tried so hard to be a good boyfriend and communicate with him, but I guess not. I miss him a lot. He means so much to me and I still love him.
relationship update!
date: 09/24/2023mood: yippee!!!!
I joined a polycule! and have a partner outside it too :3 I now have three boyfriends and I am very happy. One of them is from England so our time zones are very off... but that's okay! We still talk a lot. The other two were dating before I came along so they know each other a bit better. I don't mind that though because I have time to get just as close with them
break-up
date: 08/04/2023mood: ??????
Me and my boyfriend broke up. We kind of drifted apart and he no longer made me happy, he didn't make me sad though; I just lost those special feelings for him I guess. When we decided to split up, I was honestly relieved. I no longer felt pressure to talk to him; I know how how bad that sounds, trust me, but he didn't talk to me much either. I don't think we'll stay friends. We have too much history so at this point it's kind of awkward.
sorry for no updates!
date: 08/06/2023mood: meh
I haven't updated in awhile! I apologize . I was on vacation for 2 months; I went across the US :B it was very cool. I saw Mount Rushmore, Yellowstone, Hollywood, and the Grand Canyon!!
biology "incident"
date: 04/26/2023mood: upset, nauseated
I almost fainted in biology :( We were watching this video where this british dude kept drawing his blood after doing different things or eating different foods to show what happens to chemical levels in your blood; watching his blood be drawn just made me so nauseated. I went to the hallway so I didn't have to watch it and as soon as I sat down, I was in an actual cold sweat for the first time in my life T-T. It felt like everyone was talking in slow motion, my head felt like it was inflating, and there was a terrible aching in the left side of my neck. -10/10 experience, would not reccoment if you're squemish.
crush
date: 04/12/2023mood: happy!!
I'm so happy :33 I liked this guy and after some encouraging from my dear friend, I told him.... and... he liked me back! We are dating now :3 We live an hour or so away, but I got to see him the other day; it was so much fun.
